25 September 2015
19 September 2015
Drew and I have wanted to get tattoed together since we first met and today is the day we get inked. We are getting two tattoos that mean alot to us. We found each other and are looking forward to sharing this together with a d&d tattoo and another tattoo for our angels lost this year. Poppyseed in February and Bob/MJ in August.
Sitting waiting for Garth at Lighthouse to set up I felt so sick, excited and nervous - could I handle the pain? The losses we have experienced this year have been so painful that I promised myself that the next hour and a bit when it got ouchy that I would dedicate this ink to the man I love with all my heart, who has been there with ne through thick and thin and the two angel babies who didn't make it into the world. It just felt right.
So the ink is done and it certainly didn't tickle. Took just over an hour and only had a few moments where it was pinching like a motherf*cker. I didn't mind the process and was so excited to see the finished masterpiece and then watch Drew get his gorgeous feathers for the babies and our entwined D&D.
What an amazing spiritual and meaningful experience to share together.
I have so much hope that soon we will need to book another appt for a tattoo to celebrate our mini Jones who will safely make it to us.
14 September 2015
Monday morning the sun was shining bright and I knew that it was going to be a glorious day as the sunshine makes me feel great, even on a Monday. I feel so grateful today for so many things.
Help me to NOT eat these sugary delights. Am doing sugar free September and these lollies sitting in a reception area as I waited for an appt I swear could hear them speak to me! Strong I was and I didn't need any help to stop me scoffing them all!
Walking through Martin Place i love hearing the clock chime. It is always a moment I take to stop and feel grateful for being alive, happy & loved. So lucky to be living in a great city and having a great life even with all the unfairness, death and destruction in the world.
After the gym I walked back to work feeling so accomplished and healthier after my first gym session back after four months. I love QVB and decided to walk through. There were a couple young girls taking photos and I wondered what they could see. I have never seen this angle before. I never looked up. So bright and beautiful.
Waiting for a lunch date this coffee kept me company and tasted divine. So rich and creamy with a gorgeously divine coffee taste which made my taste buds sing and dance.
They really have changed the feel of this area on Broadway from UTS ugly building to apartments with plants & greenery all over. Looks amazing. Opposite to the UTS building. Gorgeous change.
I am just in love with this bright gorgeously stunning printed clutch! A gorgeous gift from the lovely Saskia all the way from Burma. Truly a wow gift!! so thoughtful and stunning. WOW!
10 September 2015
9 September 2015
Plodding along slowly but surely on the #jonesfit challenge. I know it is going to be a slow but steady challenge and I am happy to be the hare and not the tortoise (finally learning the art of patience & know that crash diets and sticking ones head in the sand and ignoring issues doesn't achieve as much as making slow and steady changes towards healthy living does).
I am feeling excited about getting my body & mind back into a healthier place. More yin (heart) and less yang (head). The thing about the body is it has a great memory - so am hoping it catches on soon and knows what to do.
I am enjoying the September challenges and I have to admit for the first time ever in my life I don't feel super overwelmed with the goals I have set or challenges I face. I am learning I think - and learning the effing hard way that is for sure. Hope this dosen't mean I am growing up!!!
Learning more about myself as I tackle these challenges makes me believe that I am capable of so much more than I thought. I have a strange "no fear" mentality at the moment. I suppose reaching rock bottom emotionally and physically after two missed miscarriages will do that to a gal.
The one thing I did learn from those counselling sessions earlier in the year after miscarriage 1 was all about triggers and how to react (if any) to them. This was a powerful shift for me mentally and I truly believe helped me get through this emotional time with teaching me some valuable lifelong tools.
Triggers can be fuckers. They can remind you that sometimes you might not be dealing with a situation or issue and can affect your mood in an instant.
Remembering that I am in charge helps this and I can choose how I react to a certain trigger. It is ok to have shit to deal with. I know I will always remember my two angels and somedays I will have trouble dealing with certain triggers like friends and people I know having babies around the times that I was due or hearing a newborn baby cry. I can ask myself how I am feeling and do I really need to "react" right now or am I ok. Whatever I decide is ok.
Day 8 into September and I feel that things are moving in the right direction - forwards and that is exactly where i need to be, right now.